When God began to show me the importance of emotional purity in my life, He began to sift some of the ugly, sinful behavior out of my actions that were not helpful in finding and maintaining emotional purity.
The rest of this week we'll look at the behavior of us women and how we can shift those actions to help us stay fixed on the Lord.
The first thing the Lord began to reveal to me was my manipulative actions. When there was a guy that I liked I made sure I spent time with him, saw him, talked to him, or just found a way to be around him....yes, manipulation.
When I liked a guy in college I knew his schedule and I knew which hall he'd be down, on what days, and at what times. I tired my best to "accidentally" see him there each opportunity I had.
There would be the rearranging of seating in order to sit next to the guy I liked. Or making sure that if he was going to be eating dinner in the same cafeteria that we'd sit by each other.
I made sure that if I was going to be assigned to a work project, so was a guy I liked. Or if there was a chance to get together I'd make sure he knew about the activity.
I was the queen of manipulation! I had mastered it!
God pruned this from my life. I knew that when it was the guy I married was to come along I would not want to manipulate anything in order to get to know him, spend time with him, or be near him. This was on my radar. I knew what it felt like to manipulate and it was never satisfying because it was not coming from a guys desire to spend time with me, but from me forcing it to happen!
The core of this was a lack of trust and control. These can be subtle, but extremely active in our life.
Look at the way you "try" to make something happen. Do you control or manipulate to be near a guy you like? What are ways God has been pruning this from your life?
Please comment on this series of posts! I'd love to hear what you think!!